State of Mind

I'm going to attempt a diary styled post to kind of catch up to a new start. First the past I used to do a tv show on public access , the show is I'm sorry to say canceled. I never made a big deal about who I am or even my name, and at least for now I think I'll keep the same premise.
Then there is the less past, as in a book by me. That will soon be published online hopefully at Scribed.com.
I've probably went through three or four blogs , in fact this is my second attempt here. Though I cant find them they would of been under Saint Louis Beach Report.

Not much of an auto biography , but I'm not over yet.
This is a post I did on a 2012 site. It was my new years resolutions bit it also covers a lot of who I am and what I will be doing and hopefully blogging about in the coming years .


maybe I’ll also work next year on having a point and getting to it. Peace and love , and thoughtful Year end review.
This is a good time of the year for lists, best this worst that. I think that lists are an excellent
way of keeping track of your own personal growth. As a fan of 2012 and doomsday’s in general I have advocated making a list of the things you’ve always wanted to do , and then do them but really the list shouldn’t be about mortality, rather goals and dreams. This list should be a long term thing, I personally have a list of things I want to do that will take the rest of my life, and I will never get to them all. To be honest it doesn’t matter, I hope, which of the things I cross off my list but it’s nice to live life with a purpose, as I say survival , living day to day shouldn’t be that hard Amoebas survive quite nicely with one stinking cell.
I would be a total hypocrite if I said I didn’t believe in a higher power, because I have had unseen forces at work in my life , or it could be fate , but I always offer my evidence is that I should of been killed long ago. I even drowned once but it didn’t take. So its funny on my list finding god isn’t on it I think I have it figured out and it’s no longer a big deal to me. One of my lifetime goals is to work my way across the world. I generally measure this about every year as other long term goals you have to check your progress and make adjustments including evaluating how much these goals mean to you.
I tend to stray from my subject but I do want to note that list’s can have a very positive overall effect on your life. And after you have your long term list , its time to concentrate on your short term list’s like for instance a yearly list. I might bore you later with some of the benefits of short term list’s but this is annual. time. The time to look at last years list and to make a list for this year.
I posted on this list on another site . It’s really not important about my personal goals for next year. Because their based on what I’d like to do and what I think I can do. Most of the things on my new list are things I didn’t get to last year. In fact most of them had to do with a plan I invented on a new years list in 1992. Funny how things work. In fact I’m just about to enter Part B of the plan.
I wonder about me writing here because this is a serious blog and we are aware of gravity of the situation. So I won’t go into the plan even though if you want to know I’ll tell you, just not here.
That’s because I want to get back to the list . First is how did my list go last year, that’s a tough question and I feel bad for saying this but I did alright this year. I survived , I’m not among the homeless , obviously I had the money to keep my computer hooked to the internet for at least most of the year.
I lost some things that were good and bad, They shut off my cable and with the new digital broadcasting I no longer watch television except for recorded movies. This has been a painful experience as I was weened on the tube it was a hard separation. But like any relation I’ve lost theirs no going back. In fact good riddance to bad rubbish. I do miss my show I was on the air for 6 years and my last broadcast is this month.
But monetary problems aside it was time to move ahead. The really most disappointed I am in last year is my bike riding , I wanted to do a nice long distance or two this year , Factors combined from my poor old bike needing money thrown at it to really one of the worst years of weather , It seemed like for months I never even saw the sun. And yes It bothers me to ride into the C-trails toxic soups that are laid all over my area. I mean I tell joggers how stupid they are to be jogging out their on main streets. After all the car exhaust they breathe in while their running easily does more damage than the exercise is doing good.
But my bike is fixed and I’m ready to take on the challenges I still have a hundred miler, then a 200 kilometer then a two day ride that includes a road that the truckers fear to tread. For me riding is my choice of exercise and choice of fun. The main thing is health. To be healthy you have to get healthy and stay that way. If you want to know what is really important to life , try stop breathing. Health is mostly a matter of intake export. Or as it is here garbage in garbage out. I think to be and stay healthy it takes long term planning with short steps. You don’t get buff in three weeks, something I’m semi proud of is my health, people say oh your lucky to be healthy and do the things you do. Yes I am lucky, but I’m also conscience of how I treat my body. Last year my goal was to eliminate processed sugar foods from my diet. I didn’t quite get there but I did at least cut it in half maybe more. You know what I don’t miss it. It is just more bad rubbish. It wasn’t exactly my plan yet but thanks to the economy I have also made a serious dent in my fast food intake. That’s right no more burgers and fries. I miss the fries, and as with all diets I use crap food as a reward or expedience. But the more I stay away from it the less I want it or like it when I do eat it. I think this year I will try to eliminate another of my food addiction’s caffeine. It will be as tough or more so than just giving up plastic wrapped processed food substances. Like all of it it’s little by little.
I think we all should make a list on how you plan on getting being and staying healthy during this next year. Most importantly I suggest as always localize your food source, the closer you get your food from the fresher it is and the better it is for the earth. Not only that but learn to cook without boiling out all the vitamins in the food. I think steam vegetables are the healthiest , if you have to cook them. One more piece of advice , no one food source is enough you need as varied of a diet as you can get, and duh yes lay off the fried meats. In fact next year I might stop eating dead animals, we’ll see.
My life is pretty withdrawn and my goals only matter to me so I won’t get into them except to say that I want to go worldwide this year.
The rest of my list which will need supplementing are thing’s that generally go into making us better as humans and individual beings. After all, all life is unique and irreplaceable and therefore sacred.
As always my goal is to be a better person in every way, on everyday. As always I will spend time each day looking for something I have never seen before. As always I will attempt to make the world I inhabit a better place . As always I will attempt to protect those thing’s that can’t protect themselves. As always I will attempt to help save the world. I will attempt to adapt to the changing times while remembering the importance of history. I will treat my friends like my family , and my family like friends. New this year I will not let fear run my life , I will recognize it as a survival tool but it is not the emotion that guides my life. And as always I will treasure the chance to make new friends. As always I will look for opportunity, and not be afraid to take a chance.
This is a short list but I think it gives at least something to think about.
A good read on making lists is “ How to get Control of your time and your life” by Alan Lakien. I’m not sure if its online I have the dead tree version copywrite 1973. It gives some good advice on how to make list’s. Its helpful to any school people out there and also to us who want to control our time, instead of the other way around.
I know this post got a little long I apologize, and I think reflections B.
I think that at least states who I'd like to be . A by the by I'm still riding the caffeine monster.
There's many thing's I might write about like the slightly mentioned Coming Doom. Some times I might post on that but I covered most of my points in the book.
One of my favorite writing techniques is to start by saying I'm not going to give advice, but.
I love giving advice even when I have no clue what I'm giving it on.
I will say this on doom and gloom I have done the research first for my own satisfaction and second in writing a book on the subject. There were many subjects that I would like to investigate further, and now post them here. So now to add to my list of things to do is posting on this sight. Peace And Love B.