2. Like the time I was almost trapped by junk in my spare room. The fear that you will be trapped in all the crap in your space and life and forced to cry for help until you die then rot and smell so bad the mailman notices.
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| Greenhouse feb.13 Its a start. |
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| Mississippi River on the edge of The City |
Focus might be the big thing , as a clusterholic when it gets so full you have to clean or really find something , clean it while you are looking might as well. Its about the only time it will get Done. . You just pick a direction and clean from where the last place you seen the now necessary item. I've been told that you just have to do one thing, find something in the mess that you can fix or change and do it. Maybe even prioritizing and rating which item of the cluster is the bigger problem. what is My problem? Don't have enough time to list or bore anyone with them except if it's applicable to us or the story.
Whats bugging me that's relevant is a lack of writing,
I wouldn't say I am having writers block it's more like trouble putting up or actually doing it. Theres always an excuse something in the clutter of my life is demanding the time or energy that I should be putting to use attempting to put to page something forgive me but readable and maybe sellable. I'd like to think I could be good enough with practice to make a semi-living from it.
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| Mississppi and the Illinois above Grafton Illinois. |
Why inventors like me are notoriously losers, ask any woman who's ever lived with one. Their warning to me is that we have low follow through on getting anything really done or finished. Lots of cluster to put it mildly not just all over the house/ yard garage, but in the mind. You could say the mind is cattish in that we'll play with one ball of string till the next one comes along. for inventors the ball of string is the next idea that pops into the head.
Only when you throw in money it becomes more like fish chasing worms, on a hook. Many a small fish wanting the big worm end up in the frying pan. Confucius could of said that, specially if he ever tried to sell an invention or idea. As in all life there's no such thing as a "Free Lunch"or at least rarely, it could happen why else do we have lottery, the ultimate free lunch.
Inventing to me is the dream job, I.E. it should be something you'd do free that someone is willing to pay you for.
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| Winter Solstice at Woodhenge on December 21, 2012 |
In my case I'd have to write something so good , someone would pay for the next thing I wrote. Write something good enough to be readable but still have a better thing ready. so maybe I'm having heart problems along with My clusterites instead of focusing on a one to do I waste my time trying to decide where to start.
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| looks like the sun was pretty close to where it's supposed to be, kind of a nice feeling considering. |
Not the great relief it could of been , things are as madder as always and 2013 looks to be madder than ever...
As a doomer I am just a spectator now, however the calender is pretty full of things to watch this year. I think off the top there are three comets coming including a big one showing up around my birth date in November Comet ISON.
After comet Elenin bombed out we have to be wary of getting excited yet. Of course if they do show I have to wonder what kind of doom saying they will get. You can almost make a sure bet they will get tied to ancient prophecies and of course the Book of Revelations.
So far there's only three of them but if we find a fourth the planet could go Horseman crazy. It has even occurred to me that one of the comets is green, , Comets come in colors due to the gases in their makeup. Mostly the crap they drag in the tail. Remember they said Elenin was a gas powered comet in that it smelled funny.
I imagine that we as a society will not go as freaked out as apparently they used to in the old days. while there really is no such thing as the dark ages, that is the last time western man or Northern hemispherians have dealt with a decent comet.
Besides for Haley we don't get them much at all. Now the people below us get to see them fairly regularly, so our perception of comets would be a little more hysterical. a good case of less is more, in the past we have always freaked out over comets, I wonder if we'll be wiser this time?
Also I should say I'm following the predicted global coastal event , mostly from Cliff High of webbot , and semi debating what is was or could drive an event if it happens. . Nice stuff because it requires thinking bigger than just the self. This one has the advantage of being the next one. He thinks some large wave ? effects the whole planet, maybe turning us into a water world for a while. It is supposed to happen this spring in a 2012-ish event.
Its the Show Me mind that likes this one something to worry about until the comets get here. There's always going to be something. I copied this from one of my replies (the last one) and thought it had a few points worth copying to here.
please don't get me wrong I like Cliff as well. Mostly I like people who seem to be , who they really are. Confident in themselves? enough to accept as Popeye said " I yam what I yam, and that's all what I yam. "
So I'm ok with him as a being, and as a prognosticator he is one of the few better than a coin toss. However I will put the Magic eight ball as a better fortune teller. while you can google them all day I recently bought one (impulse buy) so it hasnt earned its money yet.,
I asked it Will there be a GCE this spring? its answer was "My reply is NO." Which doesn't beat around the bush, Now it could happen just not this spring.
Now if as Cliff says we are all psychic then looking into the Magic eight ball is self prophecying? The point being like a lot of things in our lives we depend on others at the expense of developing in our own selves. I mean webbot is programmed to catch what we are thinking. If it is to work it only calls what we see, right?
So we are the psychics he is the orator. the interpreter of the psychic who to all else is babbling on in an unknown language. In a really three party future telling system , the universe telling us, us telling him and then his translation. So thats three chances to get it wrong.
Sure we can trust the universe, even though it always has a bigger picture in mind. When you think of size it might not even miss us, so it could have ulterior motives, what I call Godsmack, usually large semi natural events that the survivors blame on some God punishing them.
Godsmack would be periodic global calamities. I 'am far from smart enough to say the earth isn't expanding, The sun has been finally starting to kick into maximus . It still not as hot as it was the last maximus.
While the sun is part of it, right now it can't be responsible for all of this. I've read where the heliosphere increases in size when it gets to thicker parts of the galaxy. They say now that not all space is created equal , they also theorized the heliosphere enlarged to protect itself and it's system when in heavy traffic. The sun moves at 27,000 kilometers an hour? minute second?
Size and scope blow my mind, math too, but I look at the planet, How many hundred's of giant craters do we have to have to consider it a very likely to happen again. The Only question is when.
If the ancients were telling us anything about past disasters it was solar system related. I used to think that every so often another object rips through the solar system , which I would categorize as planet x.. It could be anything from a band of comets to nibiru, even an imploded planet, say the debris of it from the last time it went through.
Of course that was 2012 thinking , and though I still have a slight hope for the dark horse it seems I was at least thinking small , I didn't even consider that it could be US crashing into another system. Maybe we are the dark horse. A comet that thinks its a little star, crashing its way through the galaxy collecting it's tail as it goes.
Just like us all trying to make a point that we are here. By the way it was Cliff High that turned me on to the helical orbit thing . I like following him, as in reading his ranting. He is getting better at his talking too. That stuff takes practice , even staying on point, or having one as I surely know.
To be fair I will ask the Magic eightball "Is planet X coming? Which is scary I'm not sure I want to know, fairs fair though. The answer is " signs point to YES." Very interesting . Good luck to all. and thanks for the input , love debating this stuff, even though the only proof is in the pudding.
Peace B.
The main thing's or the not totally useless ranting parts are the questions and answers from The Magic Eight Ball. One is there going to be a GCE event this spring? and Is planet X coming? It could be a story that I use or trust a toy prognosticator more than human ones. One of the main pro's for it , it has no ego, it don't care or will not benefit from any answer it gives. It doesn't need me , I have nothing it needs so its answer will surely be honest.
Another plus if the eight ball is right it is me being psychic in that I ask the question and input the answer. So I trust that we will not get a GCE this spring, however if its right about that then planet X is still on. Course Planet X could take awhile so that's something.
Either way I choose to no longer worry about forecasted doom. I might follow it , but it would take a lot to make me a believer Again.
I still believe my best chance is live in the now preparing , or repairing that, to be a future worth having. And as usual I have enough problems getting through this month to worry yet about next month. Another step I will take is prioritizing what gets done in my nows, make them count.
On the personal side the greenhouse in the picture way above is one of those future projects to do in the now. So far I planted half the floor in potato's , and built a stand for three planters with tomato seeds. I check inside yesterday and nothing has popped up yet, it was however 65 degrees when outside it was maybe 45. Last night I stayed awake thinking what I will do when it's hail season.
So I'm thinking building a tent to cover the top of it in emergency.
I have a king size bed spread . I'm thinking of using it and layers of cardboard glued or tied to it to be able to at least cover the roof in a hurry. Will update the gardening as it grows including the next batches of seeds. Plus I planted around 90 tomato seeds I will have to get creative to spread out and use that many plants. I hope that's the problem.
Thanks for readin' my rantin' as you can tell I need the practice. Hopefully soon I'll either get Un-writerblocked or something will happen worth writing about here.
Another personal note is so far the kayak has been the best money I've spent in a long time. I have been out twice this year , I really like it, I get the feeling I've done it for a hundred lifetimes at least. I'm not a real water person, as in a good swimmer, but I already have enough faith in the Kayak and myself that swimming isn't all that necessary . Specially in the winter months where you'd most likely die from the cold before you'd drown. Kidding ,
To me the biggest fear would be getting hit in the head by a flying carp. But the real worry is that one would jump and I would freak out and spill the Kayak and that's only because I'd probably die of embarrassment. .
So that's a fear I quickly got over , because it fits in my category for acceptable ways to die. I recently decided that I would like to die happy, to make it even harder, " I want to die happy, but not be happy about dying"...
Saying that, it really isn't all that dangerous , I like poking around in little canals and the hundreds of slews on the river. It has occurred to me that it would make for some nice video to post not only here but to hopefully a Ustream thing. But that is an old dream , or soggy worm to chase. With the Kayak I can get to places very few other boats have access to, places I haven't even been yet.
While it isn't the big thrills of Like Australia where almost every critter can kill you and Big Critters of Africa the area is central to the continent and the fourth biggest River in the world. The area is huge in lore of the monster catfish , we have 4 venemous snakes though our biggest snakes only go about 6 ft. Giant turtles can be made to sound scary, if you get up close you'd be nervous..
I know this place "Where the Rivers meet" is special, and there is plenty of material to cronical , from our past to our now, lots of stories to tell.. Lots of things to learn great questions to ask.
That's the stuff that gets the rating's but around here there's also the nice stuff, This is the flyway for almost all the migratory birds in at least North America. Ykes do I ever shut up? I do see something there hmmm.
I wonder what the Magic Eight ball would say? Except that not knowing the future means anything is possible. There's almost a blessing in knowing I don't know. Might just think on it, and see what happens, as in a dream job it's something that I'll be doing anyway.
At least I have some decisions to make and some plans to work on, working on.
Peace and Love with a whole heap of good luck to all and hope to be posting sooner again. B.
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