Wow like three years of no writing on here at least. I try, still got the dreams anyway. So I am way rusty and just creating to create . No new dooms to report, no news at all except life indeed goes on. Strange to say how much I changed and the world is still the same. Would of never guessed that, I thought it was supposed to be the other way around.
If you consider what I was looking for was the end of the world except me basically, it's probably for the best. It can be hard to look at it that way, wanting to survive the end of life as we know it. I think now the energy is best used trying to survive Life as we know it.
I've tried to rant this out before but I changed my lifelook . The big one , after learning to live in the now is The Ten Thousand Things. In Tao of Le Chung he say's why worry it takes ten thousand things just for me to take a breath. Why worry it's a miracle were even here and a sure bet that one of those things will go wrong eventually.
Plus if I want to worry there's always something, if not I can worry about nothing, which is usually the case anyway. Yet there is always something I can choose to worry about, the key is choose. When you realize that most of your worries are choices and that most of your worries never happen it becomes harder to rationalize spending time and emotions on them.
The ten thousand things are a good exercise in worrying. A good practice for mind opening is meditating on a subject and when you have the time it is worth your time to think on the ten thousand things, that every living thing needs their ten thousand things it is really a beautiful thing.
When you think about it meditation and worrying is the same process, which would be the mind processing information on a subject or situation. The same process probably uses the same muscles to meditate as it does to worry. Starts with the same processes which usually end up with different results.
Meditation is used more to calm the self down , while worry wants to charge us up. Worry is a tool of our F.O.F. (fight or flight) or as I think of it, the little man in your head, that every twenty something seconds has to tell you your safe for now. Worry is basically his job, or worse his life. That's all it's got to do is go through it's list of stuff to worry about, a list of stuff that grows longer and longer as we input potential dangers through our brain.
I've written before on just how important FOF is not just to the survival of any life-form anywhere from single cell on up everything has one, Part of the ten thousand thing's. Thing is we as in supposedly higher life-forms by ego or design think we can control it like nature instead of adapting to it we adapt nature to us.
FOF doesn't start it's clock as long as it is receiving new information , so because mostly it's an inconvenience when it goes off we invented a tool to give it a constant feed, television. I'm sure With radio they saw the potential but with tv we built a machine that can 24/7 keep the little man busy, mostly though he's busy searching his new input looking for thing's to worry about.
Or you could do it nature's way use your eye's ear's and sense's to become aware in your surrounding's which makes little man relax because he thinks he's in charge and he knows what to worry about.
If fight or flight needs worry and we need it , worry is one of the ten thousand things we need to take a breath. In a lot of ways worrying is a good thing, I worry about the bills but just because I have to. Like the electric or the phone If I don't pay I wont have them, basically.
The only real cure for worrying about bills is getting the money to pay them or live with out them. Mostly I've tend to find I somehow mostly survived up to this point and figure I probably will at least for the foreseeable now.
So if you react positively to eliminate the worry I.E. pay the bills it's worry solved for a month. A better worry is reacting to your surrounding if you see a hole in your path you first worry about stepping in it, then you react by going safety around problem solved, or you step into it leading to fear, mostly of the pain you are about to endure.
Fear usually means something has gone wrong, or of course we Think it has or will. Since your little man is trained and ready he will take charge with the best response to the situation, from throwing on the brakes stopping and removing the foot or if too late choosing its next best response .
Don't try this at home but I have fallen off a lot of stuff from a lot of different height's and it's not so much falling as it is how you land. Fear is natural but mostly useless in a real situation. like paying the bills and falling in a hole fear is now over, I don't have to fear them shutting off the electric it's already off , too late to fear falling in a hole I'm already in it. I could fear landing but that's just wasting time I could be using to minimize the impact.
If I have the time when I'm falling I like to concentrate on where I'm going to land, assuming the fall is inevitable it's a waste of time to wonder why I'm falling this time.
Which is pretty much what life is about reacting to the situation in your present time. Breath in breath out. There's very few of the ten thousand things we can actually control, so little of it that it makes the little we can do absurd to worry that much about let alone fear.
From the big like that we need a universe to hold our galaxy so our sun can revolve in it while we chase it on a planet rotating at just the right speed and distance to get just the right amount of heat
to provide just the right amount of light and radiation to allow things to grow. To the small like the tiny critters that live in us, to them were one of the ten thousand things.
So you can see my basic problem is how can I be a doomer if I'm amazed I'm alive at all. I think I should be worried at least in my countries direction but I will not fear them, ask them for anything or believe a word they say as always.
It is heart braking on what they say they are going to do which I assume includes finishing off the environment once and for good. Just guessing I don't want to know, or do know just don't want to spoil it yet.
Off the topic of the ten thousand things of course, because I don't think having a government is one of the things, I'd thought I'd try my hand at maybe some loose prognosticating, I guess so I or we can see how wrong I can be.
For a lazy reason I see old movies. I like old movies and I have to be thinking of Duck Soup, the Marx brothers and in a positive way the Great Dictator. Mostly Alex Baldwin portraying the president . Maybe I see the comedy as in the Greek tradition a happy ending more or less. Like the Three Stooges short where they end up mounted like deer over a mantel. As they say the harder they come the harder they fall one an all.
That said the biggest change should start with me or in me. Being January I like to believe in Resolutions big and small it's the fun of making a plan to make it better. I'd like some adventure this year something physical fun yet healthy. Also get back to my music and try to be a good person.
I have the story ideas for a lot of stuff I need get to print including a story called "Run Sadie Run". Getting them from here to there is the hard part. That's why I might post on here as a journal your welcome to read .
Peace and good luck Bryan
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