Top five most Horrendous things done by We The Peoples

I decides to make a little list for some discussion. First it's hard to really know until all the facts are buried and rewritten by the Powers That Be into propaganda, so think about it as people in the future thinking about US after we are gone.

Or maybe better still think of it from the point of observer. Someone on this planet that wasn't directly affected by the action.

I used the word horrendous because these are especially evil acts. I'll list them more in the time than ranking of evilness. A lot of the numbers may end up being guestimates as to how many people were effected.

1. To me its easy to find a place to start. George Washington's treaty with the Senaca. As long as the grass grows, and the river's flow.

2. The invasion of the Philippines, also known as the Spanish American war. See the war Prayer
3. The Atlantic charter

4. Hiroshima Nagasaki , , and added the fire bombing of Tokyo
5. Faluja While people in Japan still feel the effects of the bombs what we did in faluja is still relatively unseen.

1. I like starting with our founding fathers. Someone once asked me what I thought of them fighting for their and my freedom, my answer was , yes they were fighting for their country and freedom as they were stealing it from the people who were already there. Part of being an horrendous event is the numbers killed by the action , first by that act and then by the repercussions. Most of these events are still killing people so the total scale of horrendity is still taking shape.

It's also hard to count the bodies when the killing reaches into the millions and includes destroying cultures and ways of life. I've read they can only estimate how many people died from smallpox courtesy of Columbus's visits to the new world. A safe guess is that 40 percent of the population in north America or the Great turtle died from just Columbus stepping on shore some where near the ?Virgin Islands. Course we can't count that as we weren't a nation yet.

It relates though because if it wasn't for the plague the indigenous population pre=Columbian would of not been as easy to conquer when the Europeans started showing up to settle a hundred years -ish later. Maybe we can forgive them a little as they probably didn't know that the Natives seemed so primitive because they were just starting to recover from Columbus and his smallpox which had devastated their system of tribal nation government based on a barter system that had been in place for thousands of years.

Part of our history is that we carved this great nation out of nothing, bravely going where no civilized human had ever been. The land of for free. It's fascinating to think that planting a flag was considered ownership of a continent. It's funny to me that France and Spain had a dispute over who owned Missouri. The only reasons it didn't lead to war was there was no gold here to steal, that and the commute was way too long. So Spain gave and sold their claim away ,while the French did what is called the Louisiana purchase selling their stake in the Continent to the invaders who would of took it anyway.

So while I picked G. Washington and the treaty with the Seneca. My favorite way to get a primer on what the treaty was is start with Johnny Cash “As Long as the Grass Shall Grow”

While it is just one of the thousand treaties we the peops, courtesy of our Government and manifest destiny, divine right, that we made and broke according to our needs wants. When I was growing up it was always explained to me that God obviously wanted us here, or he wouldn't of allowed us to so easily subjugate the first people.

None of which would of happened without the devastation of the population by Columbus almost 300 years earlier. Even with it a little hindsite as I always say we should of ate the Pilgrims, which would of at least been a good start.

In general the treaty Washington signed gave sovereignty and Autonomy to the Seneca Tribe , granting them the land basically between the then thirteen colonies and the Mississippi River, for as long as the grass grows, and the rivers flow, the moon rises and the sun shines. By Adams the second President this treaty was broken and rewrote, giving them less land each time , until now their land consists of a few casino's.

2. “Lord our Father, our young patriots, idols of our hearts, go forth into battle — be Thou near them! With them — in spirit — we also go forth from the sweet peace of our beloved firesides to smite the foe. O Lord our God, help us tear their soldiers to bloody shreds with our shells; help us to cover their smiling fields with the pale forms of their patriot dead; help us to drown the thunder of the guns with the shrieks of their wounded, writhing in pain;

http://warprayer.org/ That's part of the War Prayer by Mark Twain , written about our first foreign escapades in the War Business. While the Spanish American War is mostly remembered if at all by Theodore Roosevelt and his rough riders fictitious Ride up San Juan hill., it was used as the springboard to our annexation of the Philippines.

The Philippines was our way to show the world powers that we were now players. A strange leap here from Cuba to there , Cuba was considered property of Spain as was half the world at one time or the other. When the Cubans decided they wanted to become autonomous We The Peoples of the land of the free were eager to help. Semi -eager, at the time the country was finally starting to get back to normal from the Civil War, and a lot of the country didn't want to get into another.

In a move that the PTB used over and over , they needed a catalyst, the sinking of the Maine a ship at port in Cuba. If it sounds familiar the governments media / propaganda department immediately called it a terrorist action that required immediate retribution , before others think they can get away with attacking the USA. Blood had to be spilt. And as in the case of most of these cases it didn't really matter whose.

While Cuba was a nice target close to home ,we were technically fighting Spain who by now had been kicked out of most of their territories anyway. Plus we could actually get there as in those days we had no real navy, we couldn't really move troops and supplies over the oceans yet.

The trouble was Spain didn't want to have anything to do with a war over Cuba, they pretty much left as we came and the battle if it even qualifies as that was over in days. Whether this was planned or just happened we next decided if they wouldn't fight us over Cuba lets see if they think their other territories are worth fighting for.

I can see why the Powers That Be would pick the Philippines in a business sense. First its on the other side of the planet. To get there we would have to build a navy to transport the army we had to create, along with everything from bullets to tanks , at the time we didn't have a standing army, nothing capable of conquering an island.

So tons of money would change hands in the least, in fact this was the major opponent to going to war there , the money it would cost . The Proponents said that the Phillipines had to be liberated from an evil dictator, it was our duty to help the peoples.

Once again as history shows the Spanish didn't show , and were gone this time while our army was barely half way there. I guess over half way went the saying, as in we came this far might as well go there now.

In Retrospect I give the credit to Spain for knowing when to quit, this time. However here in the US of A we had a major case of war blue balls. Sorry but twice we went to war with no luck. A lot had changed since Cuba, there it was mostly a volunteer army put together by private donations, plus they got there photo op and went home hero's.

The Philippines were way to far away to get there by private funding, and we would need a real army to invade the jungle island, Which required the taxpayers to belly up. It even took amending the amendments on standing armies. Small deals that eventually lead to income tax through the centralization of the banks stemming from the need to form a federal banking system to lend us the money to build an army capable of invading an Island on the other side of the world to protect ourselves.

So to get there required taking on a huge loan from the Bank. This is important as every war we have fought since has also required a huge loan from a bank with interest of course. This may be the first war crime we committed fighting a war on credit. Were probably still paying off the interest on it.

It didn't help that we took the money we borrowed and paid companies to build the war machine at a reasonable profit. So this is where defense spending became a natural part of our economy. As in most crimes , follow the money, it's easy to see who would want us at war and why. The trick is getting the People in line to pay for it.

This could also be the start of our media. It was during the age of enlightenment as the nineties was the decade of invention. Almost everything we use now was thought of then. As fast as We see the world changing now, we have nothing on the nineties particularly 1895 a very special year . This was the decade of both the radio and the motion picture.

While before we had newspapers made and devoted to mostly news affecting us, mostly locally delivered. With the radio news was now world wide. What that meant to We the People is we had to start thinking worldwide. Or at least that is what the radio told us to think. As always they told us it was their patriotic duty to support the Army and the government, and especially to “Trust Them” .

The news gave the reasons for war , that should sound very familiar. We were going there to free the people from an evil dictatorship, that oppressed and restricted the religious freedom of the indigent population. That was goal one , as always it takes different reasons for different folks. It was also a preventive attack we would attack them before they could attack us. Not just against Spain but all the other countries that might think we were soft.

Then they had the speal that the war would pay for itself mostly from our new trade presence in the Asian world. With a capable navy we could charge for others to use our waters. I mean we needed the money to pay down the interest on the money we borrowed.

Not that the PTB really cared what the people thought as in most of their money would come via funding by the Congress and house, We the People had 2 choices like it or not. So like some snowball rolling down a hill we ended up with a new army on an Island range in the Pacific, with once again no one to fight.

At least not an army, we had prepared to assault the Islands and kick some Spanish Army guys butts. There we had 2 choices we could of went back home or we could invade anyway. Lucky for the bankers there was the rebel fighters who had been battling the Spanish before their premature pull out that could be used as the targets of our aggression.

3. The Atlantic charter. The Atlantic charter did for the world what Washington's treaty did for the indigenous Americans, basically a really nice idea, where any country that fights or supports the Allies of WW2 against the Axis powers would receive Autonomy after the war was ended, for as long as the grass shall grow. In this case the grass stopped growing about the Time Hitler was playing out his last days as Glorious leader.

It's interesting to note that the treaty was actually a good idea, and it's hard to imagine the difference in the world today if we the world would have stuck to it's principles. Each country/nation would be allowed to form it's own government free of undo outside influence, a big deal back then as it was a German tactic to invade or gain control of a country and install a government that worked for them. A good example from then would of been the Vichy government installed by the Germans to run France.

I don't think they invented this but it was a change from the older Empire builders tactic of flag planting, which involved placing there government into the now acquired country usually appointing a governor from their country to go rule as a proxy for the invaders. The problem with this was that the invaded were usually unreceptive to being ruled by some foreigner. Plus in the enlightened world it was hard to justify yourself as the Big Free when you were out there ruling over other countries.

This was England and Frances big image problem during the second world war. Here was England talking about the evil aggressors attempting to take over the world , while they happened to have already conquered.

Especially in the Island nation's that still remembered the day their worlds ended , when the big boats came to their Islands. Considering there is only about 2 countries in the world that England hasn't sent troops , they needed a big PR boost if they were to be seen as now the good guys, more importantly getting them to join our side.

Then we get back to the French, they also had territories all over the Pacific and Southern Atlantic oceans. These territories would have been the catalyst for the change in flag planting to the more covert controlled form of Vichy governing that we use today. Appointing a governor in France would have been relatively simple if not for all the countries that France had a piece of, Germany would have had to invest a lot of time money and troops to occupy all the lands the French had semi control over.

It's important to note that most of these countries as any we the Peoples would, did not like being ruled by foreign powers, no matter which flag they flew. Suppressing revolutions was a way of life for soldiers of most of the Allied countries.

America had just gotten it's first real taste of it in the Philippines , a plus for us We the People is that it didn't really work for us , specially with a brand slogan of Land of the free. It was our charter envisioned by the founders that we were not going to become this ever expanding empire , I think they even had rules , which of course were made to be broken, for the right reason or price.

So we had all these Empires . Former empires, and up and coming empires verses the new empires on the block, wannabes The Germans and The Japanese, with the Italians for comic relief. It's very clear now that they were the bad guys, but if you look at the match up on paper, like a map, it comes off looking pretty lopsided, 2 size challenged nations, we could probably fit them both into Texas and not be able to find them.

The PTB on our side needed an angle, not for we their peoples, this was as all wars controlled through media, they needed something for the other countries who suddenly had a choice as to who would oppress them.

While it sounds like a noble idea, that our side would allow those who chose us to become free autonomous nations, the idea probably started on Madison Avenue, from the people who brought us the Easter bunny and cigarettes for women. It's hard to say if it was all propaganda as Roosevelt our leader who signed and pushed the article was dead before the war ended.

However we talked the talk , we must have admired the way the Germans used the Vichy system, for before the war had ended we were planting our leaders in small countries all over the world. First and still relevant was Iran where we installed a warlord who became the Shah of Iran.

Not that it mattered at the end of the war a new treaty was signed that divided the world up between the major winners. Also as part of the deal certain territories of the old empires were reacquired. This was important in that France was given Vietnam, a country they had been conquering before the Germans conquered them.

While we detested the fascist , many business people in our country were heavily invested , mostly banks and the manufacturing companies. It's hard to say how much policy they incorporated into the third Reich, regardless we revised their system to make it more people friendly. We weren't flag planting, we were democracizing the world. With this message , combined with the fear of communism, dictators, and religious persecutors, we could with the media arm of the government justify our overt leadership changes, as well as cover for the covert changes that came to the worlds attention. Many have written on the process of using the CIA to uninstall governments uncooperative to US business ventures in order to reinstall leaders we can count on.

4. I found while getting opinions about this article, that of the five this may be the best known. Dropping the Bomb. Mostly surprising because of how fast we the people forget. Or don't want to know, or just can't believe that. In my opinion the worse reason in the world for not believing something.

First the spin, the biggest war on the planet was winding down, yet the Japanese wanted to fight until there last man went down. So to save American casualties we forced them to surrender , by dropping 2 Atomic bombs on their cities, Hiroshima and Nagasaki. Plus it was the ultimate payback for Pearl harbor.

I had the fortune to ask a veteran of that war, how he felt about the bomb, and he said he was on a transport ship heading to Japan so he was definitely glad they dropped the big ones, probably saved his life.

While I am probably wrong to call it the truth, yet due to the freedom of information acts that allow us to know about things we can no longer change, we find that the Japanese were begging to surrender, our government purposely slowed down the process in order to get their message to the world out.

Why were they begging? Well that would have mostly to do with the Firebombing of Tokyo as well as other cities. The Japanese media couldn't spin the firebombs, the people knew they had lost, which makes it hard to believe the lies they were being told.

A good take on spin is that they only tell you what they want you to know. This applies to every country on the planet. I don't know how the greatest generation felt about the bombing of populated cities, I would guess they placed it into something that happens in war.

Ariel bombardment was relatively new, in world war part 1 they basically tossed bombs out of the cockpit as they flew by, which lead to all kinds of developments into the massive bombers they would use in act 2. It also went from your basic bomb , dynamite or nitro in a metal sphere to specialty bombs such as bouncing Betty's to the incendiary bomb. Bombs designed for maximum effect.

We the People have always been proud of our bomber fleets, yet it's important to understand the message, like that it is a law that in the movies our bomb's never miss. Starting in Germany where we were always dropping bombs on factories we then as today, one missed and then compensated by dropping more . I have seen the pictures of a city in Germany called Sweinfurt a city known for it's ball bearings, I asked if they called them selves the balls of Europe as this was the major producer of ball bearings which are used in about everything.

So they were a legitimate military target. I spent my army time occupying this city, in the 70's. I got a kick out of how in the war movies and television like Hogans Hero's whenever they had extra bombs or couldn't hit the primary target they would drop their ordinance on Sweinfurt. So while people have heard of at least the bombing of Berlin day and night by the allies I seen some of what we, they, wern't saying in that our bombers did miss targets , we did and still do miss. There I was told that although they reduced almost the entire city to rubble they were not able to seriously disrupt the making of balls.

On purpose or not this became the tactic of taking it to the people. We didn't invent it , we did use it. We firebombed German cities most known being Dresden. Of course they used them first, most on the Russian's , however in their hayday they dropped a few on England. Even though I think most of England would of burn't up anyway old as it was. Teasing my Friends there. Still fire has been used since at least Sun Tzu and his art of war. All that changes is the technology. Constantly getting more adept at killing for cost.

The relatively new use of chemicals and additives to make fire even more effective took off during the World wars. Really the biggest tech leap since Greek Fire. They found that mixing in certan chemicals, mostly phosperus stuff made the fire burn hotter and longer. I can see the point if your making a bomb to burn someone alive , you dont have to worry much about the poisonous after effects.

In war as we now know it, the after pollution is even considered a bonus. Which we will get to. So for now we are back to Tokyo At this point in the war the last months, the allied plan was to go from Island to Island taking out the Japanese forces as went until we landed in Japan.

The media spin of the day said the Japanese would never surrender, we had to kill them, to stop them. Worse to kill them would take the lives of our troops as well as a lot of money. Considering that all We The People knew about the Pacific part of the war was what we were told, Same as The Japanese They the Peoples.

I can see the spin on both sides bombing Tokyo was definitely progress, Plus there was a hatred of the Japanese far beyond what they could ever work up over the Germans. Maybe it is just racism, because it's hard to think we still were mad about Pearl Harbor, even though I'm sure they used it for every bit of propaganda they could get.

You would expect the Japanese media machine to mostly by now be all lies. I mean they had the whole world against them, and it was going to get worse, Russia wanted a piece of them too. They say that just like the Germans they would broadcast news of victories far away, along with telling the people just how nasty and viscous the Americans were.

So our message to them was the fire bombing of their major cities. By then we had a huge bomber force, towards the end we were using jet bombers. Basically we built an Armada of bombers. Not just the leftovers from Europe we now had an economy geared to produce them at will. We also had a government totally committed to using them.

Somewhere here and then we dropped a pretense of morality, as in not blowing up or burning to death women and children. In Germany we could believe that our bombs never missed, and if they did it was a process of war, or an act of god.

The fire bombing of Tokyo dropped the pretense, we were burning the city to the ground, there was no doubt that we were killing civilians, it might have been the whole point. No matter what the news was telling them , they were seeing defeat with their own eyes.

We the people knew they were finished. Their Government knew they were finished, their troops had known it long before this, all they had left was how to surrender, no longer when, it was even with the hardcore Japanese, trying to save a little honor for their history books.

So as horrendous as the fire bombing of a populated city was and is, it was the final straw needed, we could have quit then. We had won, we didn't need to Island hop across the Pacific, all that was over, or at least the need for it, and we certainly had no real need to do what we did next. One good thing for We the People, fewer than a couple thousand of us even knew what was going on. This was a major top secret thing, that everybody knows about. Super secret. To get super secret status a lot of people had to know about it yet , not talk about it.

Hundreds of scientists, thousands of Military officers, a few thousand worker bee's who had no clue what they were doing except not to talk about it. There was also a few key politicians and secret committees, it surely took millions of then money to build the three bombs, which meant congress appropriated in one way and another the funding, knowing of the planning.

I've not read how much Roosevelt knew about the bomb , but I read where his replacement President Truman was informed of it's existence after it was almost built. A hard person to figure is Truman, history places the responsibility of dropping the bomb right on his desk. Even he said the buck stops here, The president is the Titular Commander in Chief of the Armed forces.

Like all these things it's too late now. In retrospect the bombs were really just a test , and a statement that a knew kind of war was right on the horizon, with a new goal M.A.D. The ability to blow up the world. Mutually assured destruction. Leading into my lifespan on the World gone madder, what we call the good old days, the cold wars. As we go the cold wars were made possible by us making and breaking the Atlantic Charter, which was just another treaty of the make to break variety starting with George Washington's Treaty with the Senaca. Which brings me to a point on how it might seem I'm like AntiUS and in especially these incidents I think yes we were wrong , and millions died and suffered because of each one of these things, some more like the treaty of Washington, some less like the Philippines that while it didn't have the population numbers , it was still a springboard for every other time we have since sent our troops upon the water, a cumulative effect.

The same tactics for going over there , just new names of places to find on a map. To me Korea and especially Vietnam were just different Acts of the same play. Really Vietnam would be Remake of the Philippines, with of course a lot of improvements in Effects. Sadly the PTB even used the old “You sunk my battleship” routine. Worked for the Spanish American war (the Maine) as well as WW act one (The Lousitania), if it was good enough for them it was good enough for Vietnam (the Maddox and the Joy Turner) a bad pr name that was renamed the Gulf of Tonkin incident.

Which in a huge leap of time gives me the setup to get to the last on the list.

5. The bombing of Faluja to me the penultimate act of aggression we did during our latest invasion ,to of course demacrasize Their we the Peoples.
   First let's do the spin of the day, Falujha was a city of a few million people where the last of the opposition to the Allied forces had gathered the troops, and of course wanted to fight until the last man died.

Our solution was to siege the city. The plan let no one in or out. Start with the bombers, taking out targets of the infrastucture, power and water, turn the city off. Next take it to the people, napalm and cluster bombs for all.

This was maybe The PTB's last chance to reduce inventories, plus a great chance to test the effectiveness of the new bombs against the old ones. Were they worth the investment, and with a lot of it , they had no real proof of side effects , this would be and is a place to study. So they gave them everything, for all kinds of reasons.

A big one of course is to use up the old ones , so We can buy more. We air bombed them for about a week then hit them with Artillery , then bombed them again just to make sure. It would be hard to find a death count, the army officially had stopped counting bodies, I think the death toll was higher than from the big ones we loosed on Japan.

So even just our bomb helling of this city or all the others in Iraq would place this on the list, we have to add to this the new horror of war depleted Uranium. Not only were there reports of White phosphorous and other chemicals used in the bombing, we already had the by then accepted use of D. U. So called depleted Uranium tipped bombs and bullets. We didn't just want to reduce the city to rubble, that's been done, we wanted to leave it a toxic wasteland that would still be deadly for hundreds of years.

While its been step by step we now have a great power to do evil. I can classify DU as no other way than evil, not the ultimate evil, but a huge leap , maybe even bigger than the A bomb in that with it it was Oops There it is” where the use of uranium tipped bombs and bullets had to be incorporated and marketed more slowly to gain accepted by the People for use.

A good example tank buster and bunker busters., both really fan friendly names to sell using bombs coated with uranium P-38 a part of uranium that is removed during the process of making nuclear fuel rods. Its called depleted as if to sell it as used , or not as strong as our regular nukes. However it is radiation, with what they call a halflife of few thousand years.

Time will tell , but at this point falujha is probably more toxic than Fukishimsa . The lasting horror of falujha is the mortality rate of children. First off 7 out of 10 are born dead. After the first gulf war it was said that expecting parents no longer asked is it a boy or a girl, just whether it was normal. For a high percentage of them the answer was no. A new term was added to our list of war accomplishments D.U. Babies. Was that the plan? Not only kill as many of their population as you can , then kill the survivors , as well as the troops who fought for you, as radiation isn't picky.

Since this is the most recent I shouldn't need to do a whole lot of setup on how we got to Faluja , just remember the 9/11 and 19 Saudi terrorist with 4 planes, 2 of which knocked down three buildings in New York live on Television. In ways it makes as much sense as how we got to the Philippines from a ship in a port in Cuba.

It would be hard to measure which of the five was worse, I think that would depend on if you were affected, I could see the Native Americans point that what we did to them was maybe one of the worst things in all of history, though time and war has ground many nations and peoples into the dust.

I'm sure the Phillipinos could say what did we ever do to you guys , as well as the fact that No Iraqi has ever attacked this country , or likely ever would.

I imagine all the countries who found out the Allies had no intentions of giving them freedom would have a point as well. Even the Japanese do they think the A bombs on their cities was just payback for Pearl Harbor? After all from what I read they attacked military targets, not women and children.

One thing I see is repetitive patterns barely separable from each other, just new names and bigger reactions. It does leave me with a problem, if I wanted to trust my government, how could I possibly think that this time they are telling the truth, even though they lied so many times before.

Fortunately your not supposed to trust government, that was the real point of elections , the illusion of having the choice to throw the old bums out and give the new guys a chance.

I also apologize for not posting a bunch of links and references to the five, I did that because my references would just be the spin I wanted to prove my points. It would be much better to look this stuff up yourself, and find out if I'm lying. I'm not,, all these things are stains on our names. The red of the red white and blue. The red of course is the blood we spilt.

If your looking for the patterns on how they got We the People to follow along , its always the same. Self -protection patriotism and shockingly God , have always and will always lead the way into war.

I'd also say that as one of we the People I apologize , and realize that none of these things we have done can never be undone. Sorry world. I don't like making judgments, but I have to wonder were we always the Monster? Is that our true manifest destiny? I even wonder if we the people are that mean and evil , or are we just mind manipulated into believing that, since we are such a great nation under God We can do no wrong.

What would be nice is if we made a treaty with the world saying we wont allow false flag attacks, to fool us into attacking places that had nothing to do with it , ever again, for as long as the Moon rises and the rivers flow.

I'd also like to say that we have learned the lessons , and we The Peoples , Wont get fooled again. Or maybe that before we label other countries evil empires , and oppressive regimes, bent on world domination we will look into the mirror of history right up to the moment and then mind our own business.

I'd like to but of course all the things we done we are still doing on bigger and bigger scales. More,more,more. Thanks for reading, , peace and love B.

ClusterPhobia of Febuaries

    Clusterphobia,                               1. the fear of letting all the crap in your life get you down. Or it could be the fear of it all happening at once.
   2. Like the time I was almost trapped by junk in my spare room. The fear that you will be trapped in all the crap in your space and life and forced to cry for help until you die then rot and smell so bad the mailman notices.

Greenhouse feb.13 Its a start.

  3.  The fear that this world gone madder is getting to crazy to keep on. So many big and little things in your life hard to get a focus on where to start. 

Mississippi River on the edge of The City

Focus might be the big thing , as a clusterholic when it gets so full you have to clean or really find something , clean it while you are looking  might as well. Its about the only time it will get Done. . You just pick a direction and clean from where the last place you seen the  now necessary item.    I've been told that you just have to do one thing, find something in the mess that you can fix or change and do it.




       Maybe even prioritizing and rating which item of the cluster is the bigger problem. what is My problem? Don't have enough time to list or bore anyone with them except if it's applicable to us or the story.
         Whats bugging me that's relevant is a lack of writing,
      I wouldn't say I am having writers block it's more like trouble putting up or actually doing it. Theres always an excuse something in the clutter of my life is demanding the time or energy that I should be putting to use attempting to put to page something forgive me but readable and maybe sellable.   I'd like to think I could be good enough with practice to make a semi-living from it.

Mississppi and the Illinois  above Grafton Illinois.

Thinking I can is a long long way from actually seeing a dime, as in the inventors dream. Many times I've been told the inventors life , waste it thinking of things you'll never sell or build or get to work., To me that doesn't really sound that bad. .   It  would be a bonus to make money on an idea I conceived whether it be a floating paddle bicycle  or a movie script, the enjoyment is in the doing .
     Why inventors like me are notoriously losers, ask any woman who's ever lived with one. Their warning to me is that we have low follow through on getting anything really done or finished.    Lots of cluster to put it mildly not just all over the house/ yard garage, but in the mind.  You could say the mind is cattish in that we'll play with one ball of string till the next one comes along. for inventors the ball of string is the next idea that pops into the head.



         Only when you throw in money it becomes more like fish chasing worms, on a hook.   Many a small fish wanting the big worm end up in the frying pan. Confucius could of said that, specially if he ever tried to sell an invention or idea.  As in all life there's no such thing as a "Free Lunch"or at least rarely, it could happen why else do we have lottery, the ultimate free lunch.
    Inventing to me is the dream job, I.E. it should be something you'd do free that someone is willing to pay you for. 

Winter Solstice at Woodhenge on December 21, 2012

    Invention in it's basis is think of something that people don't have that they will now need or want. In my current case or chase for string is writing a story that hasn't been told , that people will want to hear.

  In my case I'd have to write something so good , someone would pay for the next thing I wrote.  Write something good enough to be readable but still have a better thing ready.  so maybe I'm having heart problems along with My clusterites instead of focusing on a one to do I waste my time trying to decide where to start.

looks like the sun was pretty close to where it's supposed to be, kind of a nice feeling considering.

                                                       I guess I should start with trying to be happy were still here, what a dud 2012 went out with. Still in retrospect nothing was about the best thing that could of happened. 
   Not the great relief it could of been , things are as madder as always and 2013 looks to be  madder than ever...





     As a doomer I am just a spectator now, however the calender is pretty full of things to watch this year.    I think off the top there are three comets coming including a big one showing up around my birth date in November Comet ISON.
    After comet Elenin bombed out  we have to be wary of getting excited yet. Of course if they do show I have to wonder what kind of doom saying they will get. You can almost make a sure bet they will get tied to ancient prophecies and of course the Book of Revelations. 
      So far there's only three of them but if we find a fourth the planet could go Horseman crazy.  It has even occurred to me  that one of the comets is green, , Comets come in colors due to the gases in their makeup.  Mostly the crap they drag in the tail. Remember they said Elenin was a gas powered comet in that it smelled funny.
        I imagine that we as a society will not go as freaked out as apparently they used to in the old days.   while there really is no such thing as the dark ages, that is the last time western man or Northern hemispherians have dealt with a decent comet.
      Besides for Haley  we don't get them much at all. Now the people below us get to see them fairly regularly, so our perception of comets would be a little more hysterical.     a good case of less is more,   in the past we have always freaked out over comets, I wonder if we'll be wiser this time?


         Also I should say I'm following the predicted global coastal event , mostly from Cliff High of webbot , and semi debating what is was or could drive an event if it happens. .    Nice stuff because it requires thinking bigger than just the self.  This one has the advantage of being the next one. He thinks some large wave ? effects the whole planet, maybe turning us into a water world for a while.  It is supposed to happen this spring in a 2012-ish event.
      Its the Show Me mind that likes this one something to worry about until the comets get here. There's always going to be something.   I copied this from one of my replies (the last one) and thought it had a few points worth copying to here.

please don't get me wrong   I like Cliff as well. Mostly I like people who seem to be , who they really are. Confident in themselves? enough to accept as Popeye said    " I yam what I yam, and that's all what I yam. "
       So I'm ok with him as a being, and as a prognosticator he is one of the few better than a coin toss. However I will put the Magic eight ball as a better fortune teller.  while you can google them all day I recently bought one  (impulse buy)  so it hasnt earned its money yet.,
        I asked it Will there be a GCE this spring?  its answer was "My reply is NO."     Which doesn't beat around the bush, Now it could happen just not this spring.
       Now if as Cliff says we are all psychic then looking into the Magic eight ball is self prophecying?   The point being like a lot of things in our lives we depend on others at the expense of developing in our own selves.  I mean webbot is programmed to catch what we are thinking. If it is to work it only calls what we see, right?
   So we are the psychics he is the orator.  the interpreter of the psychic who to all else is babbling on in an unknown language.   In a really three party future telling system , the universe telling us, us telling him and then his translation.  So thats three chances to get it wrong.
     Sure we can trust the universe, even though it always has a bigger picture in mind. When you think of size it might not even miss us, so it could have ulterior motives, what I call Godsmack, usually large semi natural events that the survivors blame on some God punishing them.
         Godsmack would be  periodic global calamities. I 'am far from smart enough to say the earth isn't expanding, The sun has been finally starting to kick into maximus . It still not as hot as it was the last maximus.
   While the sun is part of it, right now it can't be responsible for all of this. I've read where the heliosphere increases in size when it gets to thicker parts of the galaxy.   They say now that not all space is created equal , they also theorized the heliosphere enlarged to protect itself and it's system when in heavy traffic.   The sun moves at 27,000 kilometers an hour? minute second?
     Size and scope blow my mind, math too, but I look at the planet, How many hundred's of giant craters do we have to have to consider it a very likely to happen again. The Only question is when.
        If the ancients were telling us anything  about past disasters it was solar system related.   I used to think that every so often another object rips through the solar system , which I would categorize as planet x.. It could be anything from a band of comets to nibiru, even an imploded planet, say the debris of it from the last time it went through.
  Of course that was 2012 thinking , and though I still have a slight hope for the dark horse it seems I was at least thinking small , I didn't even consider that it could be US crashing into another system. Maybe we are the dark horse.    A  comet that thinks its a little  star, crashing its way through the galaxy collecting it's tail as it goes.
  Just like us all trying to make a point that we are here. By the way it was Cliff High that turned me on to the helical orbit thing .   I like following him, as in reading his ranting. He is getting better at his talking too. That stuff takes practice , even staying on point, or having one as I surely know.
   
        To be fair I will ask the  Magic eightball "Is planet X coming? Which is scary I'm not sure I want to know, fairs fair though.   The answer is " signs point to YES."     Very interesting . Good luck to all. and thanks for the input , love debating this stuff, even though the only proof is in the pudding.
          Peace B.  
    

   The main thing's or the not totally useless ranting parts are the questions and answers from The Magic Eight Ball.   One is there going to be a GCE event this spring?  and Is planet X coming? It could be a story that I use or trust a toy prognosticator more than human ones.   One of the main pro's for it , it has no ego, it don't care or will not benefit from any answer it gives. It doesn't need me , I have nothing it needs so its answer will surely be honest.
  Another plus if the eight ball is right it is me being psychic in that I ask the question and input the answer. So I trust that we will not get a GCE this spring, however if its right about that then planet X is still on.  Course Planet X could take awhile so that's something.
  Either way I choose to no longer worry about forecasted doom. I might follow it , but it would take a lot to make me a believer Again.
   I still believe my best chance is live in the now preparing , or repairing that, to be a future worth having.   And as usual I have enough problems getting through this month to worry yet about next month. Another step I will take is prioritizing what gets done in my nows, make them count.

  On the personal side the greenhouse in the picture way above is one of those future projects to do in the now. So far I planted half the floor in potato's , and built a stand for three planters with tomato seeds. I check inside yesterday and nothing has popped up yet, it was however 65 degrees when outside it was maybe 45.   Last night I stayed awake thinking what I will do when it's hail season.
   So I'm thinking building a tent to cover the top of it in emergency.
  I have a king size bed  spread . I'm thinking of using it and layers of cardboard  glued or tied to it to be able to at least cover the roof in a hurry. Will update the gardening as it grows including the next batches of seeds.  Plus I planted around 90 tomato seeds I will have to get creative to spread out and use that many plants. I hope that's the problem.


       Thanks for readin' my rantin' as you can tell I need the practice.   Hopefully soon I'll either get Un-writerblocked or something will happen worth writing about here.
 
      Another personal note is so far the kayak has been the best money I've spent in a long time.   I have been out twice this year , I really like it, I get the feeling I've done it for a hundred lifetimes at least. I'm not a real water person, as in a good swimmer, but I already have enough faith in the Kayak and myself that swimming isn't all that necessary . Specially in the winter months where you'd most likely die from the cold before you'd drown. Kidding ,
          To me the biggest fear would be getting hit in the head by a flying carp. But the real worry is that one would jump and I would freak out and spill the Kayak and that's only because I'd probably die of embarrassment. .
       So that's a fear I quickly got over , because it fits in my category for acceptable ways to die.   I recently decided that I would like to die happy,  to make it even harder, "  I  want to die happy, but not be happy about dying"...
    Saying that, it really isn't  all that dangerous , I like poking around in little canals and the hundreds of slews on the river.   It has occurred to me that it would make for some nice video to post not only here but to hopefully a Ustream thing. But that is an old dream , or soggy worm to chase. With the Kayak I can get to places very few other boats have access to, places I haven't even been yet.
   While it isn't the big thrills of Like Australia where almost every critter can kill you and Big Critters of Africa the area is central to the continent and the fourth biggest River in the world.     The area is huge in lore of the monster catfish , we have 4 venemous snakes though our biggest snakes only go about 6 ft. Giant turtles can be made to sound scary, if you get up close you'd be nervous..
I know this place   "Where the Rivers meet" is special, and there is plenty of material to cronical , from our past to our now, lots of stories to tell..   Lots of things to learn great questions to ask.
        That's the stuff that gets the rating's but around here there's also the nice stuff,  This is the flyway for almost all the migratory birds in at least North America.    Ykes do I ever shut up?  I do see something there hmmm.  

       I wonder what the Magic Eight ball would say?    Except that not knowing the future means anything is possible.   There's almost a blessing in knowing I don't know. Might just think on it, and see what happens, as in a dream job it's something  that I'll be doing anyway.
            At least I have some decisions to make and some plans to work on, working on.


    Peace and Love with a whole heap of good luck to all and hope to be posting sooner again. B.
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Y'er Birthday Rant OH12

I Thought I'd do a little picture ranting , along with the usual complaining about getting another year older.  I also thought I'd throw some fall foliage here. Not a whole lot of color this year, least not around here.
 Still have to be thankful we have had several good rains including a three day version of post hurricane Irene. 

     

  Just like this we have a floodwall in the city and aparently some pretty decent artist's who paint it and paint it and paint it.
 



    on to Y'er birthday rant , or mine really, normally it's just another day in the life, lately the happy day is the one before the birthday, and the one after.
  The one before because it's celebrating the last day you will be that old.  the one after because well its over.
     Even though I still have a few days  before left , I got my birthday present early this year.   And I must say it so far has been undeniably the second best birthday present ever. The kayak was my present to myself , picked out by myself, even paid for in cash by myself.
         I like you hate to get hooked up in possessions but I already really like this thing, even knowing it's totally non-essential, it could be handy to have. I always try to justify almost everything I buy. Usually money is tight so I don't really have the choice I then try to live by the old folks way, "If you can't afford to buy it, then do without it.
     When this comes down to essentials, and with me it does , almost always with my living bills , I divide my money towards which is the closest to being a real problem. Worrying the gas or electric man, or worse the landlord will be knocking at the front door   is a pretty usual way of life for me.  I almost habitually pick up my phone to see if it's still turned on, I still get freaked out on the few days of the year they actually shut the power off, thats when it becomes a real problem.
         When it really hurts most is when I could of paid them like a week or so before , because I lose big , with all kinds of penalties and recconect fees. For you newbies out there , paying the bills on time is okay specially if You have it to spare .
    After you do it awhile you kind of realize the futility of paying on time. To me it came the day I had wrote a few checks to pay some bills and was on my way to mail them thinking alright paid all my bills before they were due I'm a free man. Then I looked at my mailbox and there was another pile of bills already waiting for me.
      They never stop , so I kind of took to paying as I felt it. There's some rules of course , getting to know just how long each bill will wait , and even how much will it really take?    It's hardcore but my state has laws about when the power guys can not shut you off. Mostly they have rules on the temperatures , can't shut you off when it's too cold or too hot.
    Always check for yourself but here this means global warming aside there are only a few months a year the gas or electric company can shut you off. If you pay them some like the month before your pretty much safe. During the warm periods send them small payments and in the winter spend the money on more important stuff, like the landlord.
     Now if you are getting ready to move  then yes pay them off or down as far as you can, so they will give you power in your next place. now if you own? get your own power .   Grow your own .
            That's some pretty bad advice and I hope you never have to take it.Not the growing your own of course , it's the only thing that makes sense.

         
     Looks like a good spot to remanence on the latest happenings both pro and con for an Oh12 event.      Somehow the timing isn't quite right.  While it could be an event of kablowie or a sudden big thing. Or as the The south American locals are saying  , time to get a life, and a new calender.
   Sure we have fireball meteors, one of the big signs that would coincide with a planet X Nibiru situation. I would think there would be much more evidence by now.
  It;s quite possible we are missing most of it, I have heard two or three reports of strange occurrences on our neighboring rocks.  Mostly a large meteor or comet strike on I think Jupiter that astrologers didn't see coming until it hit. Then a large storm on both Mars and Saturn.
     If there is proof that what is happening on earth is not Just man-made climet change/warming it would lie in the other planet's.   Even there we still would have to prove that it is also not the sun in maximus.
     So I still will not give up hope on planet X my little dark horse of the apocalypse.

I throw this one on for me.  I actually just bought a new 30 year old bike.    this is more for a record , because I plan on replacing almost everything.     We'll see but all I wanted was a frame, I think I will keep the rims too.   Shocking it's a Schwinn road bike 12 speed with the original shifters handle bars maybe brakes gears .   I guess I'll start at the top and replace the seat first.   I  was dreaming I'd start with a frame and paint it I kind of like the paint job, might just leave the paint on.
        I might have to put it on a different page , but I used to blog my bike rides , big shock I took a lot of video.   That was for the show back when, Still I liked writing about riding and think I'll diarize turning this bike into the one that get's me over the hundred mile ride hurdle.  A semi life goal for me is to do a 100 mile ride then a 200 kilometer.
      It wont kill me either way if it doesnt happen , or I'll be having bigger worries than being lazy.  It will be piece at a time , but I' have till spring ,  Considering of course. And right now I feel it's worth considering there will be.
     I want to concentrate on three things mostly, as my next years goals. The bike and the ride is always a goal , for the record I have done 92.6 miles on road , and 82 I think on the Katy trail a pea gravel trail .  Of all I wrote and lost over the years the post I did on this ride was My favorite. In fact my hundred miler would probably just stretch the original ride out another 8 miles.
        An aside when I did the ride I knew I was close to a hundred, and I still had gas in the tank, could of easily finished it then. Could of should of , still we are talking an incredible ride in some really nice places.Including crossing the Mississippi twice and a ferry ride . plus crossing a drawbridge over the Illinois. Through towns so small you could miss them even on a bike.   very nice places and some of the reason I so like living where I am.   This was one of the great days of my life Sadly maybe but I could see heaven as the same kind of day.

    I see the bike ride as a physical challenge while it will take some will power most of the hard work is done by the body. Before I spent the summer doing longer rides that was to build to getting up to a hundred.
   This was my fourth ride over 60 miles , which was a huge leap from the usual thirty milers I thought were tough.
     To me a big part of it was time on my bike I could average from 9 to 13 miles on average depending on terrain.
      so I spent nine hours on a bike. That's not bad but if I had a faster bike I could one cut the time on seat down so If I can get this bike into the upper teen's miles wise it could cut my time in half. Not to mention if I get that far I should be able to take on the big boys maybe enter a ride or race.
  That would be fun the skinny little geiser on the bike older than most of the riders at least making them sweat. maybe even for a second or two showing some rear tire as were going downhill. We will see, anyway the bike didn't break me or won't no matter how much I spend on it considering what A real road bike cost's.

      It takes discipline  and a lot of time to do most worthy life goals.     While this goal fits that there is my next Want to Do for my next year of life.   This one involves one day and will last an hour or less.    Remember the Kayak?   Well I have always wanted to kayak the Chain of Rocks. It's been done for sure but its scary when you get up close.   Around here if you'r not from around here you can appreciate who ever slaps the names on the places. The Chain of Rocks is a row of rocks, big rocks that the corp of engineer placed all the way across the Mississippi river.

     The Chain of Rocks bridge from above was the northern border for the city of Saint Louis, Mo.
      The rocks are there to raise the water level enough to operate the canal that goes around the river at this point.    The canal is there because this part of the river is was unnavigable due to a massive crack that runs across the river at this point. When it cracked it fell at an angle where the eastern side is about six to eight feet lower than the Missouri side.
    In the olden days the barges would of been mule train pulled up and through this area followed by coal powered trains and crains.  This was one of the worst stretches of riverboat travel , with no telling how many sunk boats are still out there not to mention the ghost's in the river.  Still though this place has a magic , it's own power that makes it unique in  the world. I'm sure the folks in Niagara know what I mean.

   There's an old gieser saying " You can never look at the same river twice" At this spot you can really feel the truth of that statement. 
   One day I might tell the story of this place including some of my stories that go from the top of that bridge to the little buildings in the middle of the river, what are called the pump house's. And yes you guessed it they at least used to pump water to the cities water plant which is the other side of the river. There are tunnels from the water plant that goes to the pump houses. Seen it but didn't go that deep.  Another missed opportunity , or another trip at least. I was pretty pleased just to get onto and then into the place . We once tried lowering ourselves down the bridge column to float out on a raft then climb into it. I say that ended in the success that nobody died. While you couldn't do it now when the river is high enough you can get a boat up it which is what we did years later.
        another story would be the top of the bridge I think that was one of the biggest test's of my invincibility that I can tell you that me and a friend sat on that highest point . The bridge is now a bike walk trail connecting the bike trails in St. L with the miles of trails in Illinois.   when I get some better shot's I'll give some history on the bridge , very cool stuff if you like useless knowledge.
    I was there last weekend so there is some fresh footage , it's scary low as for doing the rocks , however just in case the world as we know it does end I want to get this one in.  Hopefully they'ed get some rain up north or the lock and dam above it will let some water through, the higher it is the better. 
       From here I can see myself paddling out from the barrels on the right upstream singing the Pink Floyd song Fearless psyching myself up    I think a good reason I will make it is prechoosing the spot I'm going to take through the rocks.
  I feel that you should always challenge yourself to bigger and better, and never let fear get the final decision. If it's not the right day and time I won't do it. Not because I'm chicken ****. If and when I do this the plan would include someone filming so you'll know if I do.
        Then one more thing this is the mental challenge.   Stupid as it sounds I want to at least write a movie. At least write the screen play along with a storyboard this winter. I would like to even get some footage down of What I'm for now calling Son of CHUD.
  I've already started collecting the story putting it together in my mind to get down on type.  I'll  probably do that in my own Words and then post it on here occasionally. I think the story is within reach of being doable. One of the cheapest movies to make is a zombie film so I decided to start from there.
  If you read on this blog you'll notice I have written abit on the CHDU  cannabalistic humanoid underground dwellers, which is basically zombies. Its from an 80's movie , an actually pretty good movie.   Night of the living dead with a sense of humor.
    I'd like to do something similar only adding what I think are some good twists and almost inadvertant social messages.  since the story line is that the chud feed off the homeless it would be easy to highlight the real fear these people face, not just from being eaten , the real facts that they have no one to protect them.  I would love to give the whole story now but this post is long enough, specially for another birthday. To be Honest another good goal is to get to do another one of these.
      Will keep posting these as I get the pictures ,
                                          and will update the progress on the year goals. Peace B.
  

Day of the Pictures.

   I'm just going to rant a little about a few of the Pictures I have taken lately. first off I got an unusually killer deal on a new camera, welcome to the digital age .  So far this camera has proved amazing, even though I am learning it's basics I still have along way to go before figuring it out. Meanwhile I'm just going to try posting some of my practice , on the sight as a peek into the world and mind as I navigate my way through a world gone madder.

  Yes I bought a Kayak.  I worked hard this summer needed something to show for it besides really tired knees.
     What gets me most is people  here ask me where I could take a kayak. Part of the reason I wanted a self propelled water craft is the thousands of places I could explore  within a half hour of my house.   Across the river is Alton Illinois, a favorite place of mine and home of the Piasa bird.  It's also billed itself as the most haunted small city in America.   An aside the place   I'm parked at is part of what was once called Small Pox Island.

  
    It's where they took the soldiers dying from small pox during the civil war.   Alton had a hospital and prison where they kept the confederate troops.  When small pox broke out they sent the infected to an island out in the river as a quarantine.   They also of course buried the dead on the island, maybe into the thousands.   Flash forward about 80 years and the island has been forgotten and they build a lock and dam on the site.  It was now part of the
Missouri side they think.   Like a lot of the history here they never bothered to really keep tabs on the old before they built on top of it.    Forward  again to the 90's and they build a new lock and dam.   When they tore the old one out someone got interested in historical preservation of small pox island.   They consulted an expert and he said best guess was that they had built exactly on top of the gravesight . So now we have a chunk of old lock and dam to commemorate the graves of civil war soldiers. 




   This is is just typical fall foliage. This is kind of like a secret spot, its about a mile up the river on my side. Its a lake inside an island.   It's a core of engineers project from the Eighties. A beauty place called dressers Island.  It's claim to fame is in the winter the eagles hang out and fish the river from it.
   This little hunk of land is actually very  important as it is a rest stop on the migratory route of most birds in the country. 



  it's cool how small you really are , I think the view from a kayak is unique.   A little bitty boat out there with the big fellows. It makes me feel all primeval like channeling my ancestors , my inner hunter gatherer.   yet instead of primeval I think it's more pre-evil like how I would of been without the modern world society. This spot would of seen little guys like me paddling in it since the aliens? created and left us here.

These are some riverfront pics, as you can see the lows are pretty low and the highs are well  you know.

This pic last one as I ride into the sunset.

Rantoweenie

The Place to be for dec. 2012

                 Hi all I really missed you , and missed writing.   If your wondering I wasted most of the summer working, oh well something different. I haven't worked like this , everyday in the same place it's almost like having a job.In fact a guy at the mall (yes I'm working at a shopping mall)  asked me if this was now my real job, I told him "Well it's not quite that bad" I actually kind of like it working late nights just me and a few maintenance guys and the mall Zombies, and a few ghosts.
     Both of these things I decided to write about , first working has left me some cash to spend. I'm deciding that I could spend up to 500 dollars on surviving this winter, a luxury I haven't had in a long while, or needed. To be honest I'm not a stocking up type person , I even wait till I'm on my last roll of toilet paper before I buy more. i generally eat fresh as I can get vegetables you cant stock up there , so I'm pretty much a JIT guy in a jit world.
       Just in time fits with living in the now and as a huge fan of the Great Provider it is kind of a sin or lack of faith in the GP to store or hoard provisions. After all this force  has always been there for me, in ways that most people just can't appreciate. It's very true that I was born bare assed and will probably die that way , its only the in-between that I even worry about, and then only when I have to, knowing I've made it this far I can figure I'll make it this time or next time , somehow someway I hate to put it this way but the Universe seems to provide. Though extremely just in time in it's own way.
        It's really a beautiful thing to think about, How does Universe take time to worry about little old me, not only me every little and big creature in it.    on this planet alone single cell life forms have provided what they need to live their own life cycle, which when spent will provide another creature what it needs to have a life cycle got to figure if an amoeba can do it so can I.
          So if it wasn't for 2012 I'd find a better way to spend the extra do rae me. I might be buying food I'll never eat, so I want something I can give away like next summer , assuming it's the same ol same ol world gone madder as it is now.
       I'm seriously going to spend a hundred of it on TP maybe a third of what I spend, that aside I'm pretty open as to the best calorie for the buck. Rice is easy, stores well and here is pretty cheap, at least now, flour though non essential would be hoardable as well.   While they wouldn't last till summer potatoes store well and would be good eating anyway along with maybe beets and onions.
          Since I'm more a fresh as it gets guy I don't do much eating out of cans, however if I'm hungry I'll eat about anything. That's where the canned meals come in, the heat it and eat it dinners. How much of that should I spend on?   Most of it is filled with stuff I have been telling people not to eat because it is no good for you.
           I mean in calorie content your probably better off with tree bark soup, which would taste a lot better with some spices. Probably Chili powder as it can alter the taste of a lot of found foods. I don't like salt much but if as Cliff High said we are out there eating worms next year , they might go down better with some seasoning.  An aside the worms are still probably better for you than the canned raviolies.
       I think cinnamon hugely usable will also be a stocker. It's tasty and heart healthy, just because the world as we know it could end no reason to stop eating right. Then there's my big weakness   Sugar Sugar , if I'm going to Survive I'll want some sugar.  Sugar in my coffee sugar in my tea.
      Coffee is already too overpriced for me to stock up enough to survive the end of the world (as we know it) and will be one of the many things I will miss from this madder world.   It's not that good for you anyway, it will probably do me good to lay off it.
          Tea is still cheap and would help me through the withdrawals from my coffee monkey. Which leads to the bigger monkey on my back cigarettes  Unless I learn to grow my own, smoking will become a thing of the past, right if the world ends I'll give up smoking.
          As always I think the best investment for the future and as much as a third of the cash will go to seeds. Like all my cash it will turn to seed. Only I'll be better off for it, This time.   It's a total different attitude stocking up years of canned goods verses life cycles of seeds. In a way I can rationalize that I'm doing my part in carrying on future life cycles , instead of just protecting my own.
          If anyone reads this and wants to help I could surely use some good ideas on seeds to save. theres a lot to it and it might be the big thing,. As a doomer who keeps an open mind , as in the Murphie's law addendum "Anything can happen and it will right now" the only way to actually survive anything is to learn to grow.
        How do you beat the rising food prices? grow your own. Want to keep GMO's out of your life? Grow your own. Want healthy kid's ?  it goes on and on ending with the only way to beat the PTB is to be happy without them. food supply is independance, all hail the free farmer.
      As always the answers  are simple, but that dont make them easy.  we will have to learn to improvise and innovate , while learning the old ways , how it was done before machines and corporations do it for us. We also have to deal with not only the way things are, we don't really know just how Madder the world is going to get.
       Not that it isn't mad enough, what's crazy now will be normal in a few weeks. Like the weather , sunny and hot in the west and on the north pole , rainy and almost springish in Australia and Missouri.  Weird weather is the new  normal, and normal is totally madder.
      To steal a thought , or share as I was trying to explain the same theory that of course I was crazy, because there's no way I can rationalize or be sane in the world as it is. the thing that's crazy is to think this is just the way it is.   A fine line between believing and accepting, Both of them are used as tools to control and limit the minds of We the Sheeple.
        Both of them are also inhibitors to any search for the truth.  I am used to it but I have heard so many times that something can't be true because They can't believe it. If that is your best argument , you really need to rethink your position on the issue. of course they are also saying they cant accept a fact or a line of thought mentally.   Usually because it doesn't fit the belief structure we impose upon ourselves.
         So another good reason to trust no one not even yourself.   One last point against believing , think of all the crazy beliefs that supposedly guides the puppet leaders of about any government. Or the crazy with the sign, or the original sheeple in the churches of the world.
        Not to pick on them , it's too easy , and like they would read my rant, or care , which is good because I wanted to spiel on a touchy subject for most religions , and truly most people , as some one said "Rich man poor man begger king, we each must dance alone with the reaper."
 
      This is something I alluded to earlier a life cycle. Believe it or not everything dies, it's part of the cycle, a natural thing, though rarely if ever pleasant death is  a necessary part  of life.    What the 64 dollar question is what happens next.
         First off I must add that what is really important is the way you spend your blink of an eye life cycle. I believe all I want that I'm a recycled spirit, been used before hence will be used again, still it doesn't make it so.It's pretty easy to accept that the whole soul thing is part of my mind rationalizing my immortality by denial.  
      I believe that a belief should make you happy, I mean careful what you wish for, you might get it. So I prefer to believe that I do have a piece of immortality or eternalness to my being. It helps, though I already regret my death and hope I got it right, I know I've done it before , and will do it again, hopefully evolving into a more advanced creature , after having learned my life lesson from this cycle of life I'm currently in.
         I also believe that to each his own fate. So in that way your free to believe what you want , hopefully taking into account that you might get it.  The point or the goal is to get it done and move on to whatever comes next.
    Surprisingly we can do it wrong, or it just takes longer to get it done, this is where the ghost comes in. Death done the slow way. You could call it a spirit in the middle   The good thing about believing in ghosts is that it also confirms that there is a spirit that goes on.
   In that way I know that my belief is at least partially right, there is more at least. I have met a ghost so I know that there's something beyond, I still get the thrill of finding out if it's beyond or back but I'm sure I'll find out. I'm also sure to pay a high price for that information, so there is no real; hurry to Find out.

           I always tell people I have to believe in ghosts I met one.  At least one, but since this one I could see no other explanation logical or otherwise except that I encountered a real ghost. Or to be specific the manifestation of a guy who had died, and wouldn't let it go.
      I decided to tell the story the way I remember it , it's all true , even if all the truth isn't there. I can't prove it to you , there's no video  just my word. Looking forward in time I can give some good tips later for dealing with dead people.



     Once upon a time in the land of Misery in the country of US , in pretty much the different world of the 80's I used to have almost a real job , and worked for a guy who owned a construction company.  The theme of my working for him was that he would teach me carpet laying if I learned to do everything else.
     In this case he called me and told me to go to an address and paint the inside of the house. Pretty general assignment and when I asked for specifics he was kind of quiet a sure sign there was some surprise waiting for me at the Job. Even more intriguing he even threw in a little threat or pressure involving this job and my job.
        It takes awhile to really train a boss , but even then I knew a key was choosing the battles. And using the right psychology.  This boss once told me if he thought I was too happy on a job I must be getting over and wouldn't send me back there. So if I wanted to get off this job I'd just tell him how much fun I was having on it. An aside this will freak out almost any boss telling them how much fun your having.
       Another thing for you kids is work less and get paid more. Even now I have to work so before I got out of this job I thought it would be simpler to see what it was. We did a lot of commercial work but this was a house in a decent area not that far from my house , and the biggest bonus of all it was empty , no home owners why wouldn't I want to do this job?
     I got the key out of the mailbox expecting the worse and went inside. Once again shock nothing really out of the ordinary, just a house that needed paint. Not a huge mess just some spaghetti on a wall or two. I figured mystery solved my boss was just being a jerk, and I went back outside to grab my gear and get to work.
     While I could see nothing from the start things weren't quite right. Explainable but the front door would not stay open so I could carry in my tarps and tools. I naturally assumed that it had been set in the frame at an angle that it would close itself, I used to see that in older houses all the time. I grabbed a stick and wedged the door open 
        Weird is the wedge kept working itself out and everytime I went through the doorway I had to reset it . I figured there must be some kind of suction going on because the house was closed up, and plus it smelled a little like old man. So I decide to open the place up a bit and opened a window in the living room and went to open the next when the first window slid closed. I went through the house opening windows to see if I could get one to stay open.
   I agree still not ghost proof and I was thinking just weird windows too loose in the frames.  But the next thing was as I went into the bedrooms to open the windows the lights wouldn't stay on in the rooms. As I got maybe three feet away from the switch it would turn itself back off, of course just need new switches, odd that they all did it though.
        I spent most of the day this way trying to set up the painting , spending most of my time reopening doors and windows that wouldn't stay open and lights that wouldn't stay on. The next day I was prepared and bought the sticks needed to prop open the doors I wanted open. I also taped the light switches to the wall to keep them on in the rooms I was working .
    Only noticed one new thing that day , the slippery countertops. There was no funiture in the house ,just some junk. For a place to set tools I used a countertop in the kitchen, only problem whatever I put on it would fall off  it within minutes. I semi-fixed this , thinking vibration of some kind , we were near the airport? was shaking the countertop, so I put  thick layers of newspaper on the counter then placed my tools in the very middle and had little more problems.
    Another explainable thing was the noises the house made, really a natural thing as houses settle they loosten joints which then begin to creek , like a nail being pulled out of wood. Over and over . Perfectly natural even if sometimes the house can sound kinda moany, all kinds of things can make a moan I decided best way to fix it was ignore it and get some work done.
   That evening I had a quick conversation with the boss , Him wondering if I was getting the job done and me wondering who owned the fun house, and who was going to get the thrill of living in it.  There was of course no way I was going to come out and ask if he sent me to a haunted house, even though I was starting to suspect that he knew something , normally he was the kind of boss that would at least show up on a job. to at least  see if I did.
    I asked him "who owns the house? is it for sale?" and he told me that the house had been vacant for a while and the church across the street had bought it to house a priest or two. seems the church had got a good deal on it because nobody else had wanted to buy it.  Go figure I said , and mentioned he might want to come out and work on the electrical switches as they had wore out.
     Two plus two was definitely on my mind.   Nobody would buy the house either because of it's crazy builder and his sliding counter tops, or it was because something happened in the house. Usually a great way to get a discount on a house is to find one with a dead person involved. As I heard in a movie the 3 D's death divorce and destitution.
    Top of the list is death, any house is worth less , the first time it is sold after someone dies in it. Not that it had to be, the owner could of died anywhere, lots of good reasons for a house not to sell I could think of about twenty in this house , in the two days I had been there.
  A quick description of the house to clarify, first off it was not some spooky old mansion, it was a slab house( a house built no basement one story, Thousands of these were built mostly in the late 60's earl into the 70's.  I hear they still build them in Florida but what do you expect?
     I would say this one had the seventies look , so then it was not that old of a house, in fact it was just a house in a small subdivision, with twenty more just like it. I've found through the years some of the craziest construction I've ever found was done on slab houses. This one had a difference in that it had been added onto, with a room on a lower level in the back of the house.      Point is no dorm windows that looked like eyes , just another house, another job and another day.
      Day three on the job is the reason I even remember this story at all. Most of our lives ,specially as a doomer we spend our fear on what is coming, when TSHTF , how long have we waited for that? Rarely in life does it really hit the fan, hopefully.  This day it actually did.
       This was the day I had to paint the room with the spaghetti wall, that could of been cherry pie, whatever it was it had long been dried and stuck to the wall. I guess you could call this the dining room as it had an open kitchen dining room with the living room in one open area.
   Before I could paint I had to remove the cherry pie, normally I'd scrape it, wash it with a cleaner then maybe prime it before painting. That day I'm thinking get some paint on that wall. As I'm scraping I'm wondering is it cherry pie? or Spaghetti? definitely a red sauce, I knew I wasn't curious enough to taste it.
     As I  said the first two days the house had acted funny , now it was getting serious. It was giving me the whole show . Like my own private earthquake the house was shaking . every creaky board in it was sounding off. One of the paintsticks I was using to keep the windows open snapped in half and the window shut with a slam.
    Logical mind , I could not rationalize the way this house was acting, still I pressed on . and decided screw prepping the wall I would paint it and hope for the best. I told myself this was the worst part of the job just get it over and it will be all downhill from there.
     Logically I was becoming convinced that this house was haunted and of course I got that feeling I was not alone. Maybe this is why I'm more aware of spirit's when I get that feeling now I pay attention. I think a good description would be somebody breathing onto the back of your neck, even though sometimes its more subtle like the hairs on your arms raising.
       Another sign could be even a breeze in a room , usually a slightly different temperature. Mostly it's a feeling and how we react to it.   I was getting mad, all I wanted to do was get done and get out. I also was already scared . I set up my paint bucket , with paint roller and paint brush getting more nervous by the second, not to mention the house was getting louder all the time.
    Normally I use my paint brush to cut a wall in , trim it to the ceiling and floor then roll the paint on with a roller , As they say any idiot can paint. Sadly I couldn't get the guts to get that close to  the cherry pie wall . I even had the brush wet in my hand and couldn't get my feet to take me close enough to touch the wall with it.
     Not to blame just the feet, the rest of me was in no hurry either.As often is it became a battle of wills. all the different parts of me the  self trying to get my feet to move.  Even calling them and myself all the magic words didn't help. lucky me with the inventor mind said hey lets roll it first, with a long roller pole, kind of like a compromise I could use the brush after I built my courage up a bit.
      Since it meant moving away from the wall my feet were back in agreement with the rest of the Me, and I switched to a four foot pole and tried again,.  only problem was the brush in my hand , I had to set it down. Somewhere out of the way, keeping in mind the way things slid on things , I didn't want paint everywhere so I set in on a paint lid, in the middle of the kitchen counter , where I had found so far to be the safest spot as in nothing had fallen from the middle of the counter yet.
      Vibrations or slanted builder I had gotten used to watching items I placed anywhere for at least a few seconds to see if they would stay there, most of the time they wouldn't even the window sills, so after watching the the brush long enough to ascertain it wasn't going to slide off  I went to work on getting paint on the wall, or more to the point getting within four foot of it long enough to roll on the paint.
       By then as now I was totally sure that this was not right, I was also pretty sure of a lot of things, one that wasn't cherry pie, and two I wasn't alone. ' You can't see them but they are there" a favorite line from the Gods must be crazy.  I did not see it but I heard it felt it , I decided if it "Looks like a duck. swims like a duck" . it didnt take Sherlock Holmes to figure someone had died , probably by loss of brain matter in that spot.
  And they weren't happy about it. Neither was I but I'm as stubborn as that stain on the wall,or can be and turning my back on the brush I loaded the roller with as much paint as it could hold , and telling myself , bottom line, it was just a ghost whats it going to do?   With that and with arms mostly  extended and eyes mostly closed I got the roller onto the wall,    all I had to do now was move it up and down the wall ,
        I figured that once I  got moving instincts would take over and I would get it reasonably painted in one coat , with no big drips like the ones that were running down the wall from the roller sitting in the same place on the wall. I remembered my mantra "Any idiot can paint, I'm an idiot whats the problem just do it.
     My inner painter took over I had too at least get those drips and with the rest of my will I moved my arms and started the action of painting, I was amazed my arms moved and said to myself in a favorite of the famous last words category "Hey this ain't so bad". That's when it hit me , or almost hit me . the paint brush on the counter behind me flew past my shoulder and hit the wall missing me by inches.
     There's no logical or scientific explanation for this one maybe fifteen feet across a room? things dont fall that way, ,  to me even over many years of thinking on it that was a deciding factor, the next thing I heard was a crash and then a woosh of air and I was sitting in my truck with the hand on the ignition. The crash being me tossing the roller as I ran, and I was totally prepared to keep on running   I was already in gear and backing out of the driveway before I even got That Wait a minute what just happened notion.
      First thing I asked myself was did that just happen? and the answer was plainly yes, a ghost, probably had threw a paint brush at me.   Rightly so I said to myself I don't get paid enough for that kind of abuse , I'm leaving, They can have my paint tarps and tools, I'm never going back in there again.
  My whole self was pretty much in agreement there I wasn't going back in that house ever again, but first I needed to calm down so I sat in the driveway smoking and thinking  a cig then two , and then maybe something else to help me calm down , so you know I could make it to a local bar and really get a grip.
       As the minutes mounted I started listing mentally the things I would have to replace and even the brush and roller I had left behind, still I was confident that it was just stuff not worth  going back in the house for , the ghost could have it I said, or one of my I's did another one said "Okay call the boss and tell him your not going to do the job and why.
    Drat me I thought it wasn't bad enough I had to tell a guy who would ride me about it for maybe the rest of my life that I was afraid of a ghost, more importantly wouldn't do the job , meaning affecting his and my DO RAE ME. I was at least sure he wouldn't fire me over it, he would have too much fun picking on me for years.
    I already knew what I had to do, drat me again the answer was simple , just not easy.  Like most decisions, I knew I really had no choice.  I convinced myself eventually that I now Had to finish this job, or at least get my tools, or in the very least prove to myself that  wasn't I a total coward by  re-entering the house.
     Couraged up I opened the door to go in, tried the door it was locked, but I was way ahead of him, I had long been making sure the key stayed outside the house. So I unlocked the door and went in. With one foot holding the door open I faced the room and began a little speech.
      I said " look yes yuo are scaring the heck out of me , but trust me my boss does too.  I'm not sure if you get this but you have died, and someone else , has bought the house, I can understand your unhappy but I'm just the painter , I just want to paint the place , and then I'm out of here.'  I went on   "regardless of what you do I am going to paint this house,,   I would suggest that you just take it easy for now, you can save it for the people who move in when I'm gone."   I think I mentioned I was sorry that he was dead but it is what it is.
         Night and day, the house seemed to just settle down, I took my foot off the door and it stayed open, just like that I grabbed my roller and finished the cherry pie , wall before moving on and eventually finishing the job with no more conflict.
     The spirit was still there he just let me paint.  goes back to my old saying   "It won't bother me, if you don't bother me" .   By the time my boss actually showed up to the job I was finishing off the last room.   By now more worried about the ceiling I was working on than either the ghost or my boss.   I blame this one on the crazy builder but the ceiling was so rough it was determined that I would spray it with popcorn, the little dingle ball looking stuff that was popular for covering crappy tape jobs.
     As I sprayed the ceiling it got wet and heavy and began sagging towards the floor and me. I had to get the boss in on this one , and after convincing him it that no I wasn't kidding the ceiling was almost a foot lower than when I started. As we were in the room the ghost I guess got antsy with a new face and crashed something in another part of the house.
    Terry My boss then said " Whoa what was that?"  "I  replied just ignore it, trust me. "     He did, raising more suspicion that he had known the  joint was haunted ,  it also gaged my new level of fear, forget the ghost what about the ceiling?
         Fear is a funny thing ,   I've laughed about my moment out in the the truck a hundred times. I think though it helps to examine any fear , as I've said find the roots of the fear is it natural or not.    How much effect or control does that fear have on your self.?
      I'm tempted to call it rational and irrational fears , but really rational or not is the reaction we give  to the fear not the fear itself.   the fear is basically natural or not,,  Natural fear is a first reaction to a perceived  current    danger. A real fear, say something that potentially could kill or harm you and yours.  unnatural  is fear of something that hasn't happened before, fear of the possble, you could call it. It could happen so it's to be feared.
            As usual to keep a point it goes back to the main driver of life, fight or flight, In this case I did both .. Repeated exposure to the fear stimuli wore down enough that I can function rationally  enough in the presence of extra natural occurances that ghosts generally don't bother me in general. I'm not afraid of ghost's.
      Ghost's in generic terms , in the person or familiar term it's still a case by case thing, depends on the ghost.They can be kind of spooky , by design, but it can help to empathize with it. Think about it , your a ghost haunting wherever it is you died , how happy are you going to be? Think like in the movie High spirit's Where the chick ghost got to relive her being murdered every night.  even this guy was still trapped in the prison he had made of his life, a victim of hisself.  So stuck in his rut that even with death he couldn't stop his routine.        That's sad stuck in a world he spagettied his head on the wall to get out of.
               As always when I tell the story recommend highly reading a book called   "The unquiet dead"  in case your thinking as I was I could do this , a ghostbuster.      I have more or less helped clean a few houses, it's really pretty easy , of ghost's and bad  house karma , the book provides a few helpfull techniques on ridding houses, and a spookier part yourself  of the unquiet dead, that "You can't see them but they are there".
  Happy Halloween.  Peace B.